Being a person:

I've quit my phone recently (it's been empty for like a week and I'm just not gonna charge it)
I've noticed real improvements in my mood, I've also been feeling less passive. I wanted to quit most of the internet
for a while now and the stars alligned to make this very easy right now.
What's been frustrating me is how glaringly obvious this made my faults and specifically my blatant lack of individual personhood,
I don't even know if I value it that much but a lot of me has been defined by the things I consume and not consuming those things
anymore made clear that there was nothing underneath that, I'm just kind of a nerdy girl/guy, I'm not very good at anything,
I don't really do anything interesting, I'm just here. This might be fine/normal, defining
a strict identity doesn't really sound like it has a point but I still feel like removing this part of my life that had
been exploiting me for far too long now has taken away from "me" which just sucks.

The cure to this, at the moment seems to be just doing more things, not  having only one(1) hobby, talking to friends etc.
just living like a normal human, being a person. Kind of obvious but still annoyingly necesarry to not feel like you're just a human-shaped
meatglob waiting to receive tasks.

I am definitely something but how that should be expressed and how relevant it is leads to the same thing most of these thoughts lead to:
It still just comes back to what a "good life" is, removing abstractions in my thinking has helped me a lot, another very obvious thing
I had to think of. When we're just physical interactions linking very intricately things seem less important and you kind of start to
search for goals that excite you, although I assume this is one of those ideas that you can't just understand but have to be aware of in daily life.
I still have't made/published many of my thoughts on here yet but this all fits together very well.
I just have to get out of the headspace passive consumption for 13 hours a day puts you in, things are about to get good.